Life can be seen as being govern by a few key areas. Friendships, family, relationship, and work life. Each of these are major contributor in creating who you are and what you can achieve in this world. A year ago, my trajectory was all but set. In my own self contained bubble, I was reaching towards the final conclusion of my relationship, always fearing for the future but having the resolve to look into my own family for support and strength. Now, my trajectory is all but shot. And as I scramble around looking to right this ship, I realize their really is nothing to look forward too. When your sole purpose to exist was that you honor the family name and treat your parents right. But when that light extinguish, it left nothing but the anguish of broken dreams and hopes. And this started the catalyst for the chain reaction we witness to this day.
I am angry, don't get me wrong. There was so many other different ways that things didn't happen. But when your role model falls...it is so hard to right the ship. It leave you unstable...emotional...and prone to outbursts.
..but I will overcome it. I live by my own moral code even though I'm a wanderer now. A wanderer looking for meaning in his existence.
Now to stop pull all-nighters and striding into work. That'll be a different challenge.
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