Some days, it is harder to care about life than others. Last night was definitely the latter. You try to care so much about something, you imagine them as your heroes, your idols, your role models....and everything has to come crashing down. It is so hard to trust right now. How can you when the very pillar of strength you depend your whole life was nothing but a carcass of rotting wood, whose strength you use to depend on has been replaced. I'm not sure if I'll ever be truly happy again. I feel right now I lost everything and it is soooo hard to care about anything. I try everyday...but some days...are definitely harder than others.
I need to throw myself into work right now and drown away the sorrows and thoughts. I drink myself and dance on the weekend to forgot the inevitable tomorrow. Everything is a stalling game to a game I'm about to lose.
1 comment:
hang in there, friend. times are challenging, desolate, and even seem hopeless. but i promise you, this too shall pass.
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