Time

I been up for about 30 something hours now and I feel like my mind is starting to play tricks on me. But for some reason, it is also the best time for me to figure things out.

Everything has been an endeavor. And sometimes, I don't know what is real or fake anymore. I know I could never live a few of those lifestyles because that just isn't me. Yet at the same time, I can't be happy at where I'm currently at. A double misnomer had you.

Life travels onward, the bird will continue to sing, the sun will continue to rise. No time to mope and whine. No time to self pity yourself. Only thing to do is discover the next milestone.

Endless.

Live life the way you want to live it. Disregard those that don't agree. Hardest thing I ever had to learn in life.

Life

Sometimes you wonder if life will be okay. Everything goes against your way and as mighty and as hard as you push to overcome it, it just overwhelms you. I been feeling like that for the longest time, trying to grasp at straws, looking for anything to satisfy my curiosity.

I felt so hurt and betrayed, and in my misjudgment, I took it out on the one person who was there for me all this time. Even though we had our tiffs (lol), we still manage to forge ahead and make it work.

Still it leaves you to wonder all the what ifs that happened in my life. It was a whole new adventure interlaced with the greatest sorrows, the happiest of joys, and lessons abounded.

I can still look back and say, "Look at all I did..." but still didn't do what was necessary of me...

But that is okay. Some things are meant to be buried. Some things are meant to never be discovered. Some things just aren't suppose to be.